The main problem I, personally, have with revision is, aside from the fact that it's work and no one likes work, it makes me slightly lonely. Of course revision and studying can be a social activity if you make it one but, unfortunately, I have an appallingly short attention span and work a lot better individually for this reason. I've done a few revision sessions with friends before but they've never been particularly productive so I doubt I'll "attend" many in the near future. So, yes, revision makes me lonely. It also makes me lazy- in terms of anything else that isn't school related, for example getting dressed and looking nice. Lastly, working on subjects such as maths, science and history fairly intensely make me feel creatively frustrated and by this I mean I crave more than anything to express myself in some way, I also get really strong urges to read books but, inconveniently not the books that I will be writing about in my English Lit paper in three weeks.
This "creative frustration" is the reason that I am writing this blog post. The fact that I'm about to post it on the internet is besides the point as I confess I'm writing it for myself as opposed to for anyone's enjoyment. I never intended for this blog to become so personal but I'm writing these thoughts here because the computer is the closest thing to me, at the moment. I actually keep a diary and would normally write such thoughts in there but, as I said before, the revision related laziness means I can't walk next door and pick up a notepad.
It's a slightly scary thought that I only have two months left of mandatory education. It's particularly strange for me, as someone who hasn't made up her mind where she will be studying her A levels next year, to not know to what extent my life is going to change in September. I may stay at my Secondary school for them and I might go somewhere a little further afield. But, regardless of that, things are going to change anyway. Friends will be moving away; going to different colleges; doing different courses. I'm not trying to be sentimental here, I promise...
There's no denying it's scary to think the end of my official school days is approaching but it's also very exciting. I'm excited for the long holiday coming up, I'm excited for the creative projects that I'll be able to start in this time and I'm very excited for the courses I will be taking next year. Anyway, It's time for me to get back to some revision so I'm going to wrap this up. I hope everyone reading this is well.
~Freya~
